Recently I was the luckiest person on the planet. My daughter wanted to try out for her school talent show. It's funny how children's minds work because when I asked her what she wanted to do she said she wasn't sure, "maybe tap dance?" I, of course had to giggle and point out that if you are going to tap dance at a talent show its important to actually have had tap dancing lessons. Thankfully after that she opted for singing for her audition.
I am so proud of my children when they make choices. The song my daughter chose was perfect. One of her passions is fairies (ain't she her mother's daughter) so she chose the song "How to Believe" by Bridgit Mendler from the most recent Tinkerbell movie. We practiced and practiced together in front of the webcam again and again so that she could get used to being the centre of attention. I explained for days about stage presence and body language, tried to relax her and get her singing loud and clear.
The day came and my ex-husbands fiance asked if I'd like to go together to watch both our girls so we did. When we got there it was announced that if you weren't a judge or contestant you needed to wait outside. Now I know my daughter. She's never done anything like this before and given her special personality I knew she might need me. I stuck right near that door and watched through the window waiting for the waterworks and of course they came which is when I swooped in. Nothing could have held me back from that door as I flew in to rescue my panicked princess and I took her to talk outside of the room.
I remember being exactly like my daughter and I do mean EXACTLY like her. I was exactly how she is. I loved art and drawing and singing but its more than that and I found myself knowing exactly what to tell her. I leaned in to tell my daughter "If you are scared and you don't want to do this don't do it! There are other chances, next year or something else and if you don't want to you don't have to. BUT... If you want this...you SHOULD do it!" I went on to explain further that all the other kids were also afraid they'd "hit a bad note" and that she's good and people want to hear her but repeated the same phrase again.... "If you don't want to do this you don't have to BUT if you WANT this you SHOULD do it!" I am so proud to say that she said she wanted it and off we went back into the library to try again and this time I was not leaving.
You could have heard a pin drop. I'm her mother, my feelings will be so different from anyone else's and she was moving me to joy and fear and love and so much more all at once. I had so many thoughts but most important will people understand her heart and treat it well? I felt magic happening but would they see what I see? Do they have any idea how huge this is for her to do this? And oh my do I so see myself in her. I have not felt very close to our kids new school, it has taken a very long time. But I felt a crack in my armor as I looked over to see the vice principal looking at me with tears in her eyes as she just watched in awe. I have never felt such relief and I thank that woman from the bottom of my heart for giving me what we'd been missing. I have said thank you in person but again, thanks to her for having a heart that I can relate to.
My daughter didn't get into the talent show. With 36 seperate auditions they needed to have a limit. Despite that fact she still tells people "I got into the audition!" This is also just the beginning of showing the world what she has to offer so to lighten things we got her dressed up the other day and took some of these fairy pictures for you. I also decided to show some of her intricate drawings of fairies as well.
I have been hearing a lot about giving of your talents at my church lately. Some people may think they don't have a talent to give. I say if you put your heart into something to express yourself in front of others the risk is a talent in itself. Talent takes being brave. OR.... maybe I'm just a mom who feels like bragging. If you want to take a listen to the song from the movie check out Bridgit Mendler on youtube and listen to "How to Believe". I thought I'd like to post the lyrics to the song as well. It may make the post a bit long but I think its worth it.