In one fell swoop things can just up and change on you. In the span of a minute or an hour or a week. On Thursday I had met a huge goal of mine. I have strived for three years to get there and have done it. I have accomplished my goal to walk across the stage and say I now hold a diploma in Digital Photography, a diploma in Digital Video and a certificate in Foundations In Art & Design each with honours and in the span of 3 years of school. The day was a really good one with friends and family and later on a surprise dinner. It was a really great day. Just the day before I had released the video that Lisa Nicole and I had been working on and so far so good. I was really proud of that. Still am. But then I came home Sunday to my 16 year old cat being very sick and within three hours he was gone. I have loved for 5 months longer than my son has been alive. I have felt his warmth and now I'm just missing him. I was lucky. I had 16 years with him, his passing was beautiful if it can oddly be worded that way. He made his last sounds as my children kissed him from either side and he lay on my chest, warm and curled up to sleep. He was my inspiration so often with over 1000 pictures of my cats in just the last half of his life. His sister is lonely without him, the children feel a hole and me... I miss my best friend. He really was my best friend, my boyfriend, my everything. I know I have to get back to the daily grind, to the ordinary and even the positive. There is much to do. As always. I just wish there were more moments to snuggle that big furry boy with his beautiful big head and paws and his big eyes looking at me. His soft long white fur on his chest and the way he'd scrunch up his face when I'd force a kiss on him, with his little grunts. Some people don't understand but most do. Most know that the best kind of love is from an animal. They expect nothing in return and only give you their boundless love. His is a love I will miss for the rest of my days. That's my boy.